Confession

Last Wednesday Max and I had our 32 week appointment. I have made it a point to dress cute when I go to the Dr. so far and last week was no exception. I just feel good walking into a room of very large women wearing pajama pants looking like a million bucks. It's like I'm saying "Hey look at me! I'm pregnant too and feeling the same stuff you are but I take a bit of pride in my bump." Or maybe I'm really just arrogant and like to show off? lol Either way...I dress up. Last week however, I had an additional term to meet... the goal was to "think-light". Ya know how I was doing so good on the weight gain in the early months? Well it's not that I was trying to be the skinny pregnant woman, in fact I feel that I was gobbling bad things the whole time. You see, many years ago I formed an opinion of pregnant women and how they should look. Fat and Happy!!! I don't know where this picture came from exactly? Maybe TV, maybe from seeing women I've known? But either way I had decided it was a woman's God given right to be pleasantly plump and to eat whatever they wanted during those 9 months. So that's exactly what I did...it wasn't my fault that I WANTED to eat fruit and not doughnuts. :) Trust me - I tried to man-handle a few amazing looking maple doughnuts but the acid indigestion got the best of me every time.

So again fast forward to week 32 of this pregnancy: I walk into the Dr's office looking pretty darn good in my dress pants/turtle neck/scarf combo. As always the first stop is the scale. I can tell you that each time this is the worst part of the appointment for me. I walk with a bit of hesitation to that darn scale and debate about how much is appropriate to take off in an area like this. I decided just to go with it and leave the scarf and shoes on. And then it happened...just as I knew it was going to. I had gained 5 lbs in a matter of 2 weeks! Ha Ha Ha As you can see this was a problem. I was only "supposed" to gain a lb a week. And I KNEW I had been eating a ton and feeling a bit larger than usual but wasn't that what my mental picture from so long ago was telling me to do? Yes...it was! So Dr. K had a little chat with me about the 5 lbs being a bit excessive but that I was still doing ok because my net gain was only 15 lbs, etc., etc.. And while I took this all in and do feel a bit "bad" let me tell you that I'm still eating! In fact I just took a little break from this blog to grab two pieces of chocolate. They are from a box that my lovely husband and I made a run to Dillon's to pick up after they were on sale from Valentine's Day! We looked like little piggies standing in line but I stuck my belly out and was sort of proud that I was letting my cravings get the best of me at 9:30 at night. :)

Wheeeeewwwww.... so there it is for all the world to read. My 5 lb confession. And now that it's off my shoulders I do feel a bit better but I'm not going to sit here and lie to you about my plans to make the next two weeks any better. I have went on a few walks and done a bit of elliptical time but don't be surprised if there is 5 more pounds of Kelci to love after next weeks appointment!



I hope you all have had your own Fat and Happy sort of Monday! :)