I know that I got this trait from my Mom and I think it's pretty cool. For every holiday she picks up little gifts for us kids. It's usually nothing big... just something that says "I'm thinking about you!" I picked up on this idea when my super cute niece, Lyla, was born. I really like finding little "trinkets" that I think will make her happy or are cute. Every holiday is a reason to get her a gift. :) This 4th of July however I've found it a little harder to get in the trinket mood. You see I was very excited to have such a cute baby boy to also buy fun things for. And while I still get to buy toys for Maxton I'm a little more limited in my purchases. While other mom's tend to grab shovels and water floaties I went for the one item that I thought was cute and would stick in the ground...a patriotic themed pinwheel. Right now it's sitting in a vase on the TV stand waiting to be placed on Max's grave. I'm proud of myself for carrying on in the "tradition" that I wanted to create with Max but I have mixed emotions about that pinwheel. Some days it makes me smile to know that Maxton would have loved to watch how it turned. And other days it makes me hurt...knowing that a dumb pinwheel was the only option I had for my sweet baby's "I love you" gift. But no matter how the day ends up I try to remind myself that I was lucky to have at least a little time with most important (miniature) man in my life!
